Ms. Tigger and I on the happiest day...
It's a bitch, but I do believe in it. Though some do not always get the "instant karma" that Lennon spoke of, what comes to them in life will only be a result of how they live. Life in just the past week has been insane. But...I can say one thing and that is I must have been doing something really good because I went from feeling like my life was over and in the very next day there way life and it is oh so good. I'm never going to doubt that I do deserve that. Happiness! I was just looking for it in all the wrong places. But it is there and it found me this time and you know what? It's going to be a very long time before I cry again. I deserve so much better. For I am a pretty cool lady and I like having someone appreciate it.
"life is good!"
Wrapped Around Your Finger
I was reading over some old entries last night and wanted to come in and do a little update. Basically, LIFE IS GOOD!!! It's taken me a damn long time to get here, but I have arrived. I've been off those horrid ass Xanax for over a year now and have never felt better. The only drugs that enter my body these days are the ones that I (unfortunately) must take to control this damn epilepsy. I'm still living with it and everyday is a learning experience. I'm still going to the gym daily practicing yoga, (it has helped me a great deal) lifting weights, kickboxing, and aerobics. I stay pretty busy "pimping pets" for a local animal shelter. It's cute. I'm somewhat of a celeb with the lil local kids. I'm on a local tv show with my "pet of the week" every friday and the young ones always reconize me. Would you have ever thought two years ago that I'd be working for an animal shelter? Craziness!
I'm not here to give out "too much info" since I do know certain psycho people have found pleasure in reading my journal. I just thought that maybe just maybe they would like to know that I made it through the storm. I'm happy with the love of my life. Yes. That's right. We are together and this time NOTHING will come between us. See I know how lucky I am to have him and I'll NEVER take it for granted ever again. This time around we are going to last forever. We're planning on it, actually!
I'm having a good time doing sweet lil things like making breakfast in the mornings before work and eating together on the porch, getting up early to feed the fish to attract them close to our area, and tonight...pasta and chocolate chip cookies for dessert. Yes. I have turned into Betty Crocker, but I'm always like this when we're together for some reason. It makes me happy.
Oh and the summer is going to be the best ever. I know everyone has heard that The Police are back together. Well guess who is going to see them in Dallas and in New Orleans? Could be me? Both shows are in the same week and there is a very special occasion that takes place during that week too celebrating LOVE!!!! It truly is going to be the best week EVER!
I must also add that it saddens me as I read back on old entries to see just how screwed up I was years ago. I was such a bitch to my lovely (i will never address him by any previous name that i called him) and I must address this now. He knows that I have changed. I am a good person and he is my heart. He is my soul. He is my family. He is my past. He is my future. He is my life. I thank him for always standing beside me throughout everything, for never giving up on me, for always believing in me, for always believing in our love, and for being my light through the storm. We're finally getting our happily ever after...