Rest in Peace
Ms. Tigger and I on the happiest day...
Money, Money, Money
I just wanted to do a small post here. This week has totally sucked. Today at work I made a whole 15 dollars. I guess that's ok, b/c I only had 2 tables, but FUCK. 15 dollars ain't gonna pay my bills. I work a double shift tomorrow and sat. Hopefully some money will be made. I NEED it. (If anyone wants to send me cash, check, money order, just email me and I'll send you my address. Heee!!!) I'm off Sunday and I'm going to watch football and then see Ray.
I can't wait to see this movie. I asked off work like when I first started working there. Monday night is when my Jets play the Dolphins. I have to watch. J! E! T! S! Jets! Jets! Jets!
Hey, everyone, don't forget to go and VOTE on Tuesday!!!!!!!
Scoop the poop, on your day off!!!
There's Always The Sperm Bank?!
I just got home. I had kind of a full day today considering that it was my only day off this week. I went and cashed my AWESOME 30dollar paycheck. OK! I'm sorry, and I know that waiters make like 2.17 an hour, but I KNOW that I've worked a hell of a lot longer than 30 dollars. I'm going to go over that one with my boss and have them explain b/c I sure as fuck don't get it. I then went by Pepe's house. He's been wanting to hang out for a while, but it's hard when I work 24/7 and he is ALWAYS studying. Anyhow, I went by there for a little while. I felt really good when I got there, but then he managed to kill it for me by reminding me that the only reason that I was in the situation that I'm in was ALL my fault. I quickly left b/c I could feel myself getting depressed and I also had to stop and pick up my seizure meds before 7pm. I have to be at work tomorrow at 10am and the pharmacy doesn't open until 12pm. I have to take my 1st dose by at least 9 or 10am.
I just got home and burst into tears. PS felt so bad that he didn't want to leave for work. I told him to go and I'd call him later. (Hey, my baby, I know you're reading b/c you are at work and bored as hell. I'm always happy to entertain!)
I'm just finding myself more and more depressed lately. Every day that I get closer to turning 29, I want to cry. I mean, my plan was to be out of nursing school by now, married with 1.2 kids, and working on my first book. Oh, and always, always, painting. It's just not happening for me. I think that I'm a nice person. Hell, you all know that I'm the nicest fucking person that I know. If I'm so fucking nice than why is my life like this. I've had one person ask me out since Pepe and I broke up and he was fucking gay!!!!!!!!!! WTF?
I guess that, well, I know that I'm just sitting here feeling sorry for myself. I'm going to stop this now and watch the 1st game of the World Series. Go Red Sox! Go! Oh, and tomorrow (while I work a double) my Jets play the Patriots. I hope that they kick the ever loving shit out of them. I hope that Tom Brady gets hit so hard that he's not seriously hurt, but out for the season. Heee!!! How wonderful it would be for them to beat them and remain undefeated! (By beating the Patriots!) Man, if anything wants to go my way, God, please let my Jets kick ass tomorrow.
Bye guys, I've had enough. Hi there, Andrew, if your reading and I hope that you are, see you soon!!!
Scoop the Poop and say J! E! T! S! Jets, Jets, Jets when you do it!!!
Have You Ever Beaten Up A Blind Midget?
The title, it's something that Brian from work said to me this weekend. He was so serious when he was asking, I was just looking at him like he was nuts. He was also looking at me like he didn't ask anything strange. I thought that b/c of too much work, lack of food, and lack of sleep that I was going crazy, then he just started laughing. I started laughing along with him only b/c I was glad that I wasn't going nuts and you have to admit, it was kind of funny!
I know that it has been a while since I've really posted, but these days, I'm either working or sleeping. The ONLY reason that I'm awake now is because Ewan McGregor is going to be on Jay Leno. I must watch. He is also one of my Hollywood hotties. He's no Hugh, but I wouldn't complain AT ALL. I guess that my favorites are: you all know Hugh Jackman, Ewan, Matthew McConn(just can't spell it right now, but you know who I'm talking about) etc. There are just SO many that my mind went blank. Oh My God! I just heard a commercial that Duran Duran was the music guests on Jay. Yippiee!!! I must say that I guess that I have a variety of taste in men. Oh, Tobey!
Speaking of Super hero's, Man, I cried like a baby when I heard Christopher Reeves had passed away. I was sitting here on my Precious and heard it on TV. I ran over thinking that they had to be talking about a different Christopher Reeves, but unfortunately, NO. May he walk through the most beautiful clouds as Superman, Clark Kent, or just Mr. Christopher Reeves. May he ride horses and walk again. May his accident help in research. May he FINALLY rest in peace. He will be missed.
OK! Now that I've gotten you all sad, I'm fixing to get ready to watch Leno. I'll post again when I'm not working my ass off. I'm working sooo much that I've lost so much weight. I weigh like 90lbs. Now. That's crazy! I usually weigh like 94-98lbs. I don't feel too thin, but Pepe came up to my work and we hadn't seen eachother in a while and he said that I looked like a skeleton. I swear people, I never have an appetite. (b/c of my medication, I have to make myself eat) Don't worry, I stopped by Chick-fil-A on the way home and got some nuggets and now am going to watch Jay, well, really Ewan and Duran Duran. I could give two shits for Jay. I mean, he's funny, but it's not like I love him and watch him EVERY day like I do Ellen. She comes on every morning at 10am. If PS and I are both here, we watch. I want one of the donkeys that have the cigarettes that come out of it's ass. That is so damn funny. Their online for like 5 dollars. I need one, but gotta go. Be back with some good shit asap!
Scoop The Poop!!! I did it today! Hooray for me!
Singing In The Rain
I just felt like posting about my CRAZY day. I'm just now gotten to a point where I can stop and chill. I worked a double shift today. Ok, at lunch, I had 2 fucking tables and the guy next to me had like 10. I was screaming bullshit and about ready to walk out. Then, the hostess came over and asked if I wanted this group of 5 guys or should she give it to someone else. (It was time for me to leave for my whole 1hour break.) I said, "fuck it, I'll take it!" Three of these guys were drinking crown and 7 and the other two were drinking beer. Each had three drinks. They all ordered steaks, except one guy ordered redfish. Anyway, when it was time to pay up, the guy that tipped with the credit card left me a 40 dollar tip. THEN, this one guy said that he had another tip for me. He handed me a 10 dollar bill. I walked back to put my money up and inside the 10 was a fucking 100 bill. I went and asked him if he meant to do that and he said yes. Fuck Yeah!!! It turned out to be a pretty good lunch. Tonight, it was alright, I'm really not sure how much I made seeing that I've spent some on gas, beer (and been drinking), cigarettes,etc. I think that I'm fixing to finish my 2nd beer and get ready for bed. It's 3:06am here.
Scoop The Poop!!!
You Make Me Feel So Young
I'm at home just typing on my Precious. PS is at work. This is his on week. It really sucks, but when he's off, he's usually in Memphis. I do miss hanging out with him. Maybe one day next week we can do something before he goes back to work.
I thought about getting out earlier. I had a friend that I wanted to see. I've been wanting to see him for a while. I took a shower, put on my Gap Dream lotion and spray. I then went to put on a skirt. (waiting tables doesn't give me too many chances to wear a skirt) I tried on a few things. I just couldn't find anything that just screamed, "Hey, NN, you look fabulous!!! Wear that." I curled my hair, which I NEVER do. I only put on some lipstick. I must say that my hair is looking pretty darn fabulous. I do need a trim, but everyone that I see ask me who does my hair. By the time I finished playing dress up, I'd realized that I've lost so much weigh that most of my clothes look like shit on me. It's like the other day, I was wearing jeans and a T-shirt. The jeans are a Gap size 2 and I could probably fit a bag of ice in there. I guess that I should invest in a scale and some food.
Speaking of food, I think that I'm fixing to place a to-go order from IHOP. Pancakes are sounding yummy at this particular moment.
I'm working pretty much all weekend. Grrreat!!! All I have to say is that I better make some fucking money or I'm going to be pissed. I want to go shopping, DAMN IT!
Oh, I'm still very lonely. I so don't want a boyfriend or anything complicated, I just want someone to talk to. The only people that I ever talk to are the fucks from work. Wahoo!!!
Scoop The Poop!!! I did it YESTERDAY!
I just felt like posting for a moment. I went to a local restaurant today to watch my Jets game. (Alone!) They kicked some Dolphin ass! (I love dolphins, just not the ones that try to tackle Chad Pennington!) Go Team!!! J! E! T! S! Jets, Jets, Jets!!! They are undefeated, you know, after 3 games, I can brag about that. We'll just see how the season goes. I hate this damn blogger. Like, I want to start a new paragraph now and it won't let me. Urrr! Anyway, I'm feeling extremely lonely these days. I haven't seen my family in a while. I'll probably see them tomorrow. PS is either working, sleeping, or on his way to or home from Memphis. Pepe is constantly studying and lives like 4000 miles away. I've been doing a lot of writing lately. I'm really feeling poetic these days. Maybe I'll share one day, doubt it. I'm just longing for conversation, for silence, for anything, I guess that I'm just longing for some companionship. I don't understand why. I mean, why can't I be perfectly happy by myself? Why do we, as humans, fall in love so fast and feel that we NEED it? I don't know about you, but lately I'm getting to the point where I don't NEED anything. I don't know if that is a good or bad thing, but I'm starting to like just working and being at home. So, it seems the only thing that I really NEED is money! Scoop The Poop!!!