Ms. Tigger and I on the happiest day...
Let The Good Times Roll
10:40a.m. Wednesday
I’m here in the waiting room at the head schrinker’s office doing what you’re supposed to do in this room: waiting! I feel like I’m fixing to have an anxiety attack just sitting here. (What the hell?) I must say that part of the anxiety is meeting someone new for the first time. I guess that I’m intimidated by the fact that he will seemingly be “studying” me. I just hope that he doesn’t come to the conclusion that I’m absolutely nuts and there is NO hope for me. We’ll see.
2:06a.m. Thursday
I took my medicine that Dr.MM gave to me today. I must say that it feels good to feel “normal” again without all of this damn anxiety. I took my Xanax at about 7p.m. and had a few beers. Duh, you should not drink while taking this! Not two hours later; I was out like a light. Now, I’m awake and here to play with my “Precious”.
I must say that I felt better after leaving Dr. MM’s office than I have in a loooong time. In just a short hour, he gave me some grrrreat advice that I think I will take to heart this time. Needless to say, I’ve found me a good one and will definitely be going back. (Feb. 4th, to be exact.)
I loved the fact that he genuinely seemed to be concerned with my well-being. He actually listened to me when I talked. (Most of these guys just sit there writing God knows what on their little pad while every now and the looking up at you and saying, yeah, keep going. As if they are listening to a damn thing that you’ve just said.) Not Dr. MM, he was listening. He even wanted to hear about my blog. Yippee!! I showed him how to get there and I hope that he chooses to read on.
For the first time in a long time; I feel like I’m on the right track to my “new life”. He also told me not to give up on my love, because as he said, anything is possible. We are both going through a lot right now. Dr. MM reminded me that I should be more sensitive to his needs and try to help him the best that I can. That is exactly what I’m going to do. I love this person and Dr. MM told me to never give up hope. As he put it, all things happen for a reason.
I talked to CM earlier and asked him if he had plans for his birthday. None so far, well, baby, you got you some BIG plans now and I simply can’t wait.
I wanted to post a link on here just to see if it will work. Here goes:
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This is a really nice girl that I met today, read her.