Reflecting On A Decade
8:30am
I'm having an iced coffee that Miss A just made for me and it is quite good. It's not my usual, but it's just too hot for HOT coffee. I must admit that it is a nice 70 something degrees with a sky full of dark clouds because the rain is coming and it's going to POUR!! I came here to just have a little time to myself and attempt to get my brain straight. (Good luck, right?)

I had a fun evening last night. PS, BB, and I went and played this little trivia game that they have on Tuesdays at one of our local bar/restaurants. It was much fun. Once again, we came in second to last. We're damn determined to win one of these days. It may be years from now, but WE WILL WIN ONE DAY DAMN IT!!! (probably not, heeee!!!) To me, it's not about winning, it's about having fun!

I can't help, but reflect back that it was 10 years ago today that Pepe and I went on our first date. My how SO many things can change in 10 years. He was my best friend and I miss the shit out of that. We have always had the best conversations and I miss them too. It makes me feel my age because he took me to see The Crow. (I was going through my gothic all black wearing phase and loved that movie. Brandon Lee was a beautiful person. Bless his soul.) Anyway, I guess that I'm feeling kind of sad today thinking back on all of the good and the bad times that we've shared over the past 10 years. We grew up together. I mean, I had been 18 for all of 3 months when we started dating and he was just 21. He watched me grow from a clueless teenager into the woman that I am today. I've watched him grow from doing nothing with that massive brain of his that simply knows everything about everything to be well on his way to becoming, Dr. Pepe. (Pharmacist) I'm not going to go on about the good, the bad, the ugly, or the beautiful. That would be the world's longest entry. But, there really were some damn good times. Pepe will be in my heart for the rest of my life. You just can't be with someone for that long and not keep them in your heart, unless you're a shitty fuck!! There truly were some wonderfully, beautiful, funny times that I will NEVER forget. We had it all (our future) planned out. My how SO many things can change in 10 years.

I want nothing, but the best for him. Unfortunately, that isn't me. Now, if I can just get my life in order, all will be right in the world. It's a very s-l-o-w process, my friends.

Pepe, if you're reading, it has been an honor growing up with you. I really mean that will all my heart!

**HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRASIER!!!!** I hope that you had a grrrreat day and may all of your wishes (well, maybe not ALL. He! He!) come true!!  ¶ 8:09 PM