Happy Birthday AmERICa
I hope everyone that matters had a good fourth; for those who don't, I hope you had a shitty day! I'm turning into a bitch. What's wrong with me? Don't care really. I kinda like it!

Anyway, today is my brother Eric's 35th birthday. He's been deceased for twenty years now, but that doesn't mean that I don't miss him EVERY day. I just REALLY miss him today. That' all. You know, you go through all of the "what if's" etc...I have some sweet pictures of us from childhood that I'll have to put on here. We looked a lot like eachother. We both took after our mother. Thank God! I feel him with me at times. My other brother and I usually go to his gravesite every year on his birthday and put flowers out and just bond. It has been raining her for like the past two weeks. I called him yesterday and he said that it had been raining there for weeks also. We're going to make the trip next week. It should be a fun time. It will be good to see him.

I will do an entire entry about Eric one day when I have time. He was a lovely brother. He was a funny guy. He was beautiful. Now, he is an angel. He is my angel and I love him.

**One thing that Eric used to always say was, "you know what's cool? Everyone celebrates MY birthday!** (Yes they do and they ALWAYS will.)  ¶ 9:04 PM