Ms. Tigger and I on the happiest day...
Always On My Mind
It's been exactly 2 months since the passing away of the ever so fabulous Miss Tigger. I miss her so much. J found some pictures of her that PS had taken a while back and gave them to me. Tears, yes!!! You know even though it's been 2 months to the day and I have a new kitty; I still don't think that "it" has really sunk in. Oh my fucking fuckity fuck fuck, I'm NEVER going to get to hold her in my arms EVER again. I will never get to snuggle with her. I will never feel her scratchy tongue giving me kisses. My God, this hurts like hell!!! I know that some readers may be thinking that I just need to get over "it", but you have NO
idea how very close we were. She was and still is the owner of my heart, my soul, and undying love. I just never imagined that I would loose her so soon. I was totally unprepared for this. I thought that I would have her at least another 10 years, but unfortunately it didn't work out that way and I'm just sitting here with a broken heart. People, I miss her so much. What do I do? How am I ever going to be able to think of her without crying hysterically? I've even thought about taking her picture off of this page, but afterall, she's where the name came from. I shall let her live on through my blog.
On a less depressing note, I made over 100 dollars today at lunch! Hooray for NN!!! I'm also off work until friday at 4:30pm. You know what this means? This means that I can sit up all night and watch my X-Men dvd with 5 hours of extra footage. I know, my life is boring, but it's mine. I must say that today at work Alex and I totally kicked ass. We had a party of 30 and the man that paid the bill tipped us 30%. He said that he comes in town every 3 months for these little meetings and wants us taking care of them every time. Fuck yeah, anytime!
I'm just sitting here listening to Paul Mc Cartney's All The Best. I love this cd. (Say Say Say) You know, the song he sang with Michael Jackson when he was still black? Brando is in the bedroom waiting for me to join him. We're going to be up for a while. I've been wanting to watch this since I got it. I just haven't had the time. Now I do and it's on!
I really hope that it's a pretty day tomorrow/today. I would love to take the top down and go for a drive. I would also like to plant those flowers that I've been talking about forever. Hell, I'd also like to paint the fucking door, but I seriously doubt that that one happens. I do need to go by Target and buy this lamp. PS got one today. I can't explain how it looks. I can only say that I need one. I really don't have the cash on me to be splurging, but I NEED this lamp just like I NEED my medicine every day.
I must be going now for I am extremely depressed and just want to go and watch my dvd. Later!