Rest in Peace
Ms. Tigger and I on the happiest day...
I'm Happy And That Scares Me
Ok, I know, what a weird title, but it's true. I am happy and it does, indeed, scare me. What if my happiness is taken away from me like everything else in my life? I'm going to keep all of you in suspense of why I'm ever so happy until I'm absolutely, possitively sure that it's going to go as wonderful as it seems. Sorry!
I haven't been able to post much lately because with this seizure medicine that I'm currently on, my eyes are constantly dialated. I've got one of those little things that you can talk into. It's really cool. (And sometimes, I try to just wing it and see what happens. Ha! Ha!) I'm doing my best to wing it now. I have an apt. with my new Neurologist on Wednesday. Hopefully, he'll get this whole medication situation straight. I'll feel much better when my life is semi-normal again. I know my family and signifant other will too. I can't wait to be off of what I like to call "the rat poison"! That's what I feel like I've taken when I take this shit.
Not too much going on with me. I'm just painting my little ass off and trying to make money as an artist. You know what? It ain't half bad. I have this one guy that wants me to paint his daughter a HUGE butterfly on a 6x4 canvas for the small price of 2000 dollars!!! Hooray for NN!!! He saw a few photos of previous butterflies that I've done and wanted one for her birthday. Sure thing, Mr.Man! I'm also working on a few more paintings and have others lined up. Maybe my eyes being dialated has helped my art. Ha!
You would be very proud of me, I actually left "the isolation tank" aka house last weekend and went out. I had a very good time. That was until I got home and Eliza was standing at the front door for her monthly visit. I hate that bitch! Hopefully she will not be paying me any visits for a while. (More on that one later!) She'll be coming around until the doctors get my meds in order then I'm sending her to the Bahamas for about 9 months. NO, I'm not pregnant! (More on that later!)
I think that I'm going to leave "the isolation tank" again this weekend to spend a fabulous get-away with a very special male friend. Yes, my significant other! I wasn't quite sure of his feelings for me until just recently. That's why I'm scared because just as fast as they come, they can leave even faster! We are going to spend Thursday-Monday together. I can't wait! I've missed him sooo much, no lie. Once I get home, it's back to painting, and I have my Dr's apt on Wed.
I guess that I'm fixing to go and curl up on the couch with Brando and watch some tv. FUN! It's funny, when I first got him, I wasn't in love with him because he was NOT Tigger! But, now, I couldn't imagine my life without him. It's funny, I've only had him for 4 months and I absolutely adore him. Don't get me wrong, I still miss the hell out of Miss Tigger every day, but he makes life much easier. He's already spoiled rotten. He'll be staying at his Grandparent's house while I'm away. He loves it out there. He likes to look out the window at all of the horses. I think that he thinks they are really big cats or something, but when he's over there, he'll sit in the window all day long and just stare at them. I think that's just too cute.
Wish me luck!