Ms. Tigger and I on the happiest day...
I'm A Magnet For Unavailable Men And I'm Sick Of It!
I guess this entry would go along well with my "Men Are Pigs" one. I just don't get it. I've had a few men ask me out lately and over the years. They are either married, got a girlfriend, gay, or my BIGGEST pet peeve; they try to change me. I hate that oh so much, you just don't know. I was and part of me still is in love with someone who wanted to turn me into a Stedford Wife. Sorry, what you see, hear, and read is what you get! The reason that this has really been bothering me lately is because I'm starting to think that there is something wrong with me. I mean, "Do I have a huge neon sign blinking over my head that says, "Hey, come screw with my head, I'm a sucker!"? This is not only making me loose my faith in men, but it's slowly making me loose my faith in all people.
I'm just starting to feel like everyone has a secret motive to even want to hang out with me. I guess I'm just being paranoid, but what do I have to offer? I guess if I absolutely had to, I could paint them a pretty picture. I just want to cry, which is something that I've been doing a lot of lately. I can feel myself going into this isolation mode quickly and I don't like it. I'm just so damn lonely. I've never felt this way, ever!
I'm getting to the point where I want to be alone all of the time. I don't want to let anyone in. That way I can get used to being alone and I don't have to feel the heartache when they decide to leave.